The Purpose of Life is Satisfaction

REBT Self-Help Form

What is the situation that you are upset about?
Answer: I was reading about the shame and guilt expressed by survivors of sexual abuse, and I started to think about my brother who recently attacked me on the web on my go fund me page, telling me to go on welfare

What are the unhealthy negative emotions that you are experiencing?
Answer: shame embarrassment rage depression hurt

What self-defeating behaviors would you like to change?
Answer: withdrawal and avoiding social contact overeating, overindulgence in treats

What demand are you making about the situation?
Answer: I must have approval or I am an inadequate worthless person
Dispute: Why must I have the approval of someone who doesn’t like me?
Rational Belief: There is no reason why I must have the approval of my brother or anyone else who dislikes me.

What are you saying to yourself about the situation that indicates low frustration tolerance?
Answer: I cant stand his abusive behavior
Dispute: Will this kill me?
Rational Belief: I find it uncomfortable but I am not dying from it.

What are your new healthy negative emotions?
Answer: Sadness annoyance concern disappointment

What are your new self-helping behaviors?
Answer: talking to strangers asking for what I want exercising eating more healthily

 

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Facebook the FriendlyFascist

Well, it’s goodbye to a complicated troubled relationship called Facebook. They have been kicking me off and on for years. Nudity was a problem, sexuality was definitely out as well. A series of bans led to total shunning.

This last straw saw no reason why, but ‘unusual activity’, led them to lock me out and not let me back in. I suspect it was the gofundme

There were a number of posts and I assume someone complained. I don’t know tho…

Ultimately, Facebook is a friendlyfascist organization as defined by the cognitive distortion that others must do the ‘right thing’ or they deserve to be punished. This center of the universe thinking has many associated problems. They are listed in a handy format here: REBT, but just a summary illustrates my point:

  1. Inflexible and unrealistic
  2. Assumes one’s authority over others
  3. Assumes a clear-cut difference between right and wrong
  4. Assumes one’s ability to inerrantly differentiate between right and wrong
  5. Places oneself at the center of the universe with others catering to one’s needs and wants
  6. Leads to conflict with others who also see themselves as the center of the universe
  7. Non-accepting of human fallibility.

The problem is that on their Facebook board are supporters of Trump and similer neo-nazi’s. They are courting the huge Chinese market, and nudity is a big no-no. Not that Trump and his ilk wouldn’t fuck, or pee on, anything with a pulse, its just that we are not allowed to do it. No facefucking on facebook.

Art, for example, with its 800 years of  history and tradition of western European nudity, done by genius in the field, posted for scholarly discussion, will get you booted as fast as any child pornographer.

Report this post, encourages informers, especially the lowest common denominator when it comes to Puritan values, even if you come from a non-Puritan country.

The Brits have censorship all figured out; adults are self censoring, and usually use good taste, I mean for a country that calls each other cunts on a regular basis. Their tweets are vile, but I don’t need big brother to police them for me. I like vile on occasion.

I also like nudity, some of it, like the sensuous of the French who say what is not shown but implied is way more erotic to the mind.

I detest censorship.

Adults having adult conversation is my preference.

After all it’s my internet too.

It’s been a good format to blog, and post artwork, see what other artists are doing, but I suspect there are better ones, like Ello, emerging all the time.

Lets go explore and find out shall we?

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Goodbye Richard

Richard Halliday, deceased, my drawing prof, said Blackstock any idiot can smear paint straight out of the tube, add something to it.
So, any idiot can take a good photo straight out of the camera. You have to edit it.
“(An artist) makes liberal use of artistic license to significantly embellish or change the circumstances of real-life incidents by any means possible” – Rosalind E. Krauss.

With my emphasis on feeling, I’m a personal history expressionist. I relate to Alice Neel, who as “A successor to the expressionism of Chaim Soutine, Edward Munch, and Ernst Ludwig Kirchner, Neel used distorted drawing and invented color to reveal the character beneath each sitter’s physical appearance(© Artsy)”

‎I use the camera, editing software, a formal education in painting aesthetics and a lifetime of fine art practice to reveal what lies beneath; the poetry of existence.

To find out where we are going, we must see where we have been.

 

 

Jerald W. Blackstock  dipl.(ACAD), B.F.A.,CPF.

Education

 2001                       Adult Educator, Teaching Certificate, Mount Royal College, Calgary,    Alberta.

1999                       Certified Picture Framing Course  (Michael’s of Canada)

1998                       Bachelor of Fine Arts, Alberta College of Art and Design.

1992-1996            Diploma in Fine Arts. Painting major, Alberta College of Art and Design

1973-1980            Private Art Instruction Grip Studios, Gary Ripley

1971-1973            Mount Royal College, Arts and Sciences, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1969-1971            Western Canada High School, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

 

Awards

2006                       Winner, Association of Fine Chefs Annual Illustration Competition

2005                       Winner, Association of Fine Chefs Annual Illustration Competition

2002                       Finalist, Alberta New Media Awards, Illustration category

1996                       President’s Honour Roll, ACAD

1995                       President’s Honour Roll, ACAD

1995                       Alberta Foundation for the Arts, Visual Arts Study Grant

1995                       Continuing Arts Foundation, Travel Scholarship

1994                       President’s Honour Roll, ACAD

1994                       I.O.D.E Foundation Scholarship

1993                       Royal Canadian Legion Bursary

 

Professional Employment

2005                       Professional Development Instructor, Alberta College of Art and Design, Public School Board Art Instructors

2004                       Professional Development Instructor, Performing Arts Center, Private School Board Art Instructors

1995-2001            Alberta College of Art and Design, Continuing Education Faculty, instructor, painting and drawing.

2001:                     Mount Royal College, Continuing Education Faculty, instructor, painting. Sessional

1996-2001            Own and operate Jerald Blackstock Fine Arts, fine art consulting, professional picture framing, commission works.

1995                       Painting Instructor, Guest Lecturer, Alberta College of Art and Design, Extension

1998                       Painting Instructor, Huntington Society of Canada, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1998                       Painting Instructor, Care West, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1997                       Painting Instructor, Wheatland Further Education Society, Strathmore, Alberta

1997                       Painting Instructor, Huntington Society of Canada

1998                       Painting Instructor, Leisure Directions, VRRI, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1995                       Painting Instructor, Wheatland Further Education Society, Strathmore, Alberta

1993-1994            Gallery technician / Administrative assistant. The New Gallery, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1993                       Special Projects Coordinator  The New Gallery, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1984-1986            Graphic Artist, Chinook Plastics, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

 

Art Related Documentation

2000                       Udderly Art, Colourful Cows For Calgary, by Tom Keyser. 2000, Johnson Gorman. Bovine with a Cause, pg.28

2000                       Thorn Magazine, Going Down the Road Feeling Fine. Issue 2

2000                       Thorn Magazine, Decontructing the Commode.  Issue 1

1994                       Glenbow Museum, Calgary, Alberta, Canada. Art History paper on Buddhism placed into archives.

1994                       Photo credit, C Magazine, issue 40, winter 1994, pg 48.

 

Curatorial Practice

2007                       Contemporary Art and Spirituality, Scarboro United Church, Calgary Alberta, Canada

2000                       Guest Curator, ad hocracy.  The Centre Gallery, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1999                       Guest Curator, Aspects: Land, Body, Mind.  The Centre Gallery, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1999                       Men’s Work on the Web an ongoing web site as a continuation of the Men’s Work exhibitions. http://www.cal.shaw.wave.ca/~dufa/men.htm

1998                       Guest Curator, Mens Work II, The Centre Gallery, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1998                       An Art Show, show of student works from Care West, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1997                       Art Show, show of student works from VRRI, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1997                       Guest Curator, The Garden a Dual Perspective, Deacon Ulrich Fine Arts, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1997                       Achieve, Starship Achieve Fine Art Auction, Science Centre, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1997                       Guest Curator, men’s work, The Centre Gallery, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1997                       Assistant Curator, Black Circus, Charles Malinsky, solo exhibition Ramsay Design Centre, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

 

Solo Exhibitions

2016                       The Summer of Thayre, Kawa, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

2014                       New Digital Work, Kawa, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

2000                       Public Work: Udderly Art, Bovine with a Cause (Corn on the Cow), Canada Safeway.

1998                       Critters, Deacon Ulrich Fine Arts, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1997                       Reflections on the Garden, Devonian Art Gallery, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1997                       Bennett Jones Law Firm, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1997                       The Bread Line, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1997                       Books and Books, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1995                       Jerald Blackstock, Third Year Work, The Boardwalk, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

 

Group Exhibitions

 2011                       Sugar Shack Diorama Show. Calgary Alberta Canada

2007                       Contemporary Art and Spirituality, Scarboro United Church, Calgary Alberta, Canada

2000                       Udderly Art, Agriculture Building, Corn on the Cow

 2000                       ad hocracy.  The Centre Gallery, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

 1999                       Aspects: Land, Body, Mind. The Centre Gallery, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1999                       Men’s Work on the Web http://www.cal.shaw.wave.ca/~dufa/men.htm

1998                       Mens Work II, The Centre Gallery, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1998                       Visions of Transformation, The Centre Gallery, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1997                       The Garden a Dual Perspective, Deacon Ulrich Fine Arts, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1997                       Art Gala ‘97, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1997                       Starship Achieve Fine Art Auction, Science Centre, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1997                       men’s work, The Centre Gallery, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1996                       Fresh Paint, Deacon Ulrich Fine Arts, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1996                       Graduating Show, Illingworth Kerr Gallery, Alberta College of Art and Design, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1995                       Mission Yugoslavia, Museum of the Regiments, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

 

               

 

Collections

2000                       Canadian Hunter Exploration, Udderly Art, Corn on the Cow.

1994                       Printmaking Dept. ACAD

1993                       Printmaking Dept. ACAD

1992- present       Many prints and paintings in private collections

 

Memberships / Affiliations

1998                       The Centre Gallery, Board of Directors

1998                       Calgary Contemporary Arts Society

1995                       Academic Council Standing Committee, ACAD

1994                       Selection Committee Marion Nichol Gallery, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

1993- present       Member, The New Gallery, Calgary, Alberta, Canada

 

References – Available upon request

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

3 days out

3 days out of hospital, exhausted because I’m moving in my new accessible home as well as recovering. I’m disappointed in my movers the former landlady and her handyman husband. They were to pack my home move it to storage, find a home for my cat, move stuff to my new home, help unpack, for 1400.00. 850.00 down the rest upon completion.

Also, they received a 3000.00 dollar lazyboy leather chair, a good Specialized road bike 2500 new, a huge 5’x3′ framed painting by me valued at 8,500. They ‘lost’ expensive raku vases and a sculpture, a bust, gifts from the artists.

My kitchen and bedroom survived as did my t.v. and home theatre. My computer 4k monitor is broken, and several household items are missing or damaged. 10 trips to the garbage.  The packing and handling was done by cats apparently. Seems no living room furniture survived, or would fit in the storage I could afford, so they kept it.

They wish to charge me cleaning service when I paid cleaners 250 to do that when I went in hospital.

A week before the move they declined to unpack, labour shortage they said, I found a volunteer from the church at the last minute. How else was I to lift and carry with one arm?

They moved me 2 weeks early, and 3 days late, citing convenience for them, costing me extra 200 in storage fees.

So I withheld payment of the final 500, requesting that their insurance address my losses.

All I have received is a phone message to my email requesting my losses be addressed, citing obligation and guilt, calling my email ‘nasty’.

So what there is, is unpacked and setup. Exhausted, I decline to address the movers, since they are calling names, and guilt tripping.

Instead I am moving on with my business on the web, time to get to work.

My Work

 

 

 

Seeking Satisfactions

Last Day

List Day

Good Day

Sad Day

Excited Day

Fear Day

What If Day

I’ll Figure It Out Day

Sitting over my morning brew

its 600AM on a Sat, the regular crowd shuffles in (with apologies to Billie Joel.)

I leave today.

I can do this

Go to my new apartment to be apart.

The moving hordes of boxes are about to invade

Everything stored but my cat who is lost in a good home

New roommate New relationship

A new sense of quiet at last

& lust & lost

To get used to

Finding myself in time

And old space

I never knew I was so lonely

Till I was surrounded

By careworn carefree careless

Caresses

here is my number if anyone finds out I am fired

here is my number help me to grieve my loss

here is my number I would like a friend in me

Like you are a friend in you

Teach me

Accept Accept Accept

Then ignore the devasting life event

And seek your satisfaction

You may have fewer choices

But you still have

Free Will and Power of Choice.

(image artist unknown)